Day 11

Julia and I could never meet in the same place twice... but only after a few months. Always giving a new location to where to meet, to date. Never allowed to go home the same way as departured. She did not care for reading... working in the Fiction department... ironic. How she hated the Party... Marry her? impossible. She was too young. Even if Katherine disappeared, impossible, just simply impossible. If only she didn't call it "our duty to the party"... I could have stood our political act. How did Julia know so much?... School. The impulse of sex was dangerous... especially to the Party. The way Julia put the definition of sex... so true. Oh the connection between chastity and political orthodoxy. The way children were now adays.. becoming spies of the Party, ratting their parents, concluding the family of being an entire Thought-Criminal Family. What madness is this? Why did I just shove Katherine off of that cliff? Julia would have done it... Why couldn't I? No sense anymore, for the bomb has killed Julia.